Stacyann Chin

It's Been A Minute...

I started this Blog with the intent on keeping up with it and haven't done such a good job doing so. I need to start again, and today is the day!
Since September, many things have happened in life...
I turned a year older in October...My husband finally came to live down South with me after finding a job with his company...he has to commute an hour, works swing shift to make even close to what he was making and has mid-week days off. The worst possible schedule and situation but he did it for our family and I love him for that. It's not forever---that's for sure...we have been through a lot and like everything else, we will make it through.   
I'm currently doing my student teaching. Mr. Billy Hill was my AP English teacher back in 12th grade and he's been gracious enough to let me come into his world for 12 weeks and learn from him as my Mentor Teacher. I have been able to pick his brain and really be submersed in his teaching style which is really alternative from the by the book teachers that are in a lot of classrooms these days. I am about 1/2 way through and I am excited to have had this opportunity and grateful to him.
After this I will be able to graduate with my Masters in Secondary Education...in fact, I just registered to walk in the graduation ceremony in Phoenix June 26th, 2010. I am elated to be able to go there and actually walk with the rest of my classmates, though being an Online student, I don't really know anyone else!! Still, this is about me and my moment---and I can't wait.
We are living at my parents house while still looking for a house...it will happen when it's supposed to happen...I believe in fate.
We have spent some great quality time with my nephews and family, though I wish it was more sometimes. Tyler cracks me up every single time we talk and I love being able to watch him grow up. Evan just turned one and is equally fun to be around...I can't wait till he can talk too!
I have done a lot of reflecting on people and friends in the last few months too. I have lost some friends for reasons that I don't understand and can't even explain. I have also made some relationships that I hope turn into great life long friendships. I am still trying to conquer the idea that I can't change anyone but myself and I have to love the people I love for who they are and have faith in them enough to know that they are being the best them that they can be too. I am an eternal "fixer" so this is a hard concept, but I'm trying---and I will continue.
Ok...this is a good start...let the randomness start tomorrow...

VMA's 2009~~My Review~~

So I just got finished watching the VMA's and like so many other people, I have lots of thoughts and opinions. 

First, and I don't need to even say this I'm sure but Kanye---what a tacky, senseless move. I was appalled when I saw what you did and you should be ashamed. You're a musical genius but you can't get your head on straight and you're never going to last in this industry if you keep making a total ass of yourself. Let's be honest---you piss of the white people, they don't buy your music, you're stuck now. I would stop it if I were you!!

This Article and his sorry attempt at an apology on his blog later might direct us toward Kanye having a bit of a drinking problem, and I wouldn't be surprised if he did. He's been through a lot in his life with the accident and then his mothers untimely passing, but I hope if he does, he gets help because this behavior takes away from his genius and just makes him an asshole.

Beyonce, on the other hand---well, I will say this again, if I haven't a million times already, but I wanted so badly to hate her when she went solo. She is way too perfect and I wanted to be ale to despise but I couldn't. She is amazing and genuine and so classy it's ridiculous. I literally cried when she gave up her time for Taylor Swift because when the incident originally occurred all I could think of was---she's just a kid Kanye. I don't care if I was shocked too, Swift won the award fair and square and she's JUST A FRIGGIN' KID. Beyonce proved once again tonight why she is amazing, while she will continue to have a long lasting career. She is beautiful, she is classy, she is humble and she is real. She is a true star.

What else?

Hmmmm, OK Lady Gaga...not sure what was with the arriving with Kermit, the CRAZY outfits (especially the abominable snowman thing at the end!), the panties on the dancers faces, the wheelchair chick and the blood at the end, but she sure is pretty creative even if we don't always get it. Did anyone else notice MARK from SYTYCD doing the solo with her towards the end?? Yeah---he's awesome. 

Beyonce's performance was pretty awesome too, but Jay-Z's was off the chain--gotta love Hova @ Home, right??

The Michael Jackson tribute was awesome--Madonna looked great and spoke straight from her heart and I was in tears for this part too, when she was open and honest about how people let him slip through the cracks and into the drug addiction that probably caused his demise. The dancers were, I assume, from his tour, and they were amazing. I was excited to see Janet dancing with them as well--she looks fabulous, but she usually does when she's out in public!!

Pink's performance was really fun, even though I didn't quite get it in terms of the whole swinging around thing, but it looked really fun though. Was her outfit a Lil Kim Tribute? I also didn't know that she was still with her husband Carey Hart. I was really happy to see them together. Drama about her and Shakira wearing the same outfit on the way in too, but I think Pink looked great. In fact, I think Pink doesn't get as much credit as she deserves. She is an amazing singer and performer---one of my faves actually. 

Outfits were interesting too, as always---J Lo had a LOT of clothes on and Meg Fox's outfit was---well, Ugly. Taylor Lautner looked really handsome though, and I love how Eminem never seems to age!!

The Eminem/Tracy Morgan interludes for the Best New Artist category were awesome... especially Em's tear when Tracy was singing wit Cindy Lauper. Hilarious! Speaking of Em, when he won, he was so stoic---I can feel the weight he has on him right now and I feel for him. I know he's also been through a lot but I hope he comes out of it. 

The Twilight extended preview and the preview for the Michael Jackson movie were pretty great parts of the broadcast as well, and I am glad Russell Brand redeemed himself a little from last year, even though I like his humor, it's misunderstood by many, I'm sure of it. I love that he brought up free health care though, and his comment about last year, "The Jonas Brothers accepted my apology, they had to, their Christians" concerning him picking on the boys for their "purity rings".  Too Funny to me.

All in all, I think this was a good year. I think it's kind of funny to me that people also mention how MTV plays very few videos these days, and if you watch the awards, they give out very few awards too!! Seems like it's all about performances and drama. Not that I don't like those, I just think it's sort of funny. They give out all the awards, they just don't do it on the main broadcast. 

Oh....and did you see the commercial for DIVA's with Paula Abdul though---did she look thin or what?? And polking fun at not having a job too?? I can't wait for that show on Thursday!!

Until then people~~

I love this pic, I think it sums up the night...

I think I'm a Gleek!!

OK so it's not Band, but boy does it give me that good old feeling!!

Glee is Fox's newest breakout, about the Glee Club (singing, for those who don't know the lingo!) at William McKinney High School. The teacher was an ex-Gleek (Glee Club Geek) who teaches at his old high school and becomes the Glee Club director. The kids sing great music and it's a really fun show so far---I hope it lasts!! I'm slightly in love!!

To Summarize My weekend...

I would have to say it was pretty great!!
I got to see my husband on Friday, we had a pizza party with the fam @ Grandpa's...
Saturday we had a cake and ice cream social with the Grandpa's friends @ his old folks mobile home park, then a nice family dinner.
Sunday was an AWESOME breakfast, a great afternoon on the beach and then a BBQ to close out the festivities at Grandpa's.
My Mr. and I drove back to the Bay and got some sleep and spent to today with friends hanging out.
I can't think of a better 4 days in the last few months, since my wedding and honeymoon really. I think the next week will be great seeing people and spending time with the friends I have left in the Bay. Sadly, I think some of the people I care the most about might not even reach out to me, but there might be another perfect example of my post about letting friendships die----that might just be what's happening, sad as it might be. Either way I am going to make the most of my time here for sure and I cannot wait to see all the people I love!!

The Start of a Great Labor Day Weekend...

So it's 4am and I'm sitting in a hotel room with my husband...he's messing around on the computer, I'm on Facebook playing the addictive bouncin' balls game.

Tomorrow our family is getting together to celebrate my Grandfather's 80th Birthday. I am so excited to be able to spend time with my family and with a great man who has created and raised 8 kids that have in turn raised 16 Grandkids. To create 8 lives that all end up doing positive things with their lives and raised their own children to all be well behaved successful young people has got to be something to be proud of. I know I am proud to be a product of him.

Life is great.

This is kinda sad. Click Here.

So this article basically says that there's no place to go but up.

That's good, I suppose, but sad none-the-less!

Have I mentioned I can't find a job right now???

SAD!

I totally feel this way somtimes.

Another thought about Friendship...

I have run across this a few times in life, in my own dealings and observing other people, but why do we punish ourselves by keeping people in our lives that treat us badly. I have been guilty of it myself, both as the bad friend and the keeper of the bad friend. In the latter role, I have found myself making excuses for people and justifying their behavior when I really shouldn't do so.

Even if someone has good times with you sometimes, if the majority of the time they put you down, treat you or your loved ones like crap, or use you, are they worth keeping around? What if you have known them forever?? Is that a factor to be taken into consideration?

Honestly, I don't know the answer to this because I understand both sides so well.
I think the line for me is when they start treating my loved ones bad for no reason.

Maybe I just have high standards in friends and take friendship really seriously. I used to give up a lot for my friends but I realize that most people will/can't do for me what I have done for them so I have learned to stop doing that. Ok, not stop completely, as I am still fiercely loyal and protective over the ones I love. Sometimes I feel like the people I protect don't  protect me the same way. I don't know if they don't feel I need it because I'm strong or what, but I am just like them---human, vulnerable and sensitive. I can't take it all, all the time. Sometimes I need protection too.

I just know that like with my previous post, sometimes friendships might need to die a natural death and if two people have grown apart to where they don't treat each other well the majority of the time, then are they worth it to keep it around?

I guess we all have our excuses to keep unhealthy relationships going. I hope in the future I can identify negative relationships when they start and cut them off before they do lasting damage. And I hope that for you too.

I never would have thought...

that being away from my husband would be so damn hard.

I will see him tomorrow after 2 full months apart.

Before Rashad, I never had a decent boyfriend for any length of time. I had some nice guys but never anyone who truly loved me to the core. I know they say absence makes the heart grow fonder but I never understood it before now.

I am so grateful to have such an amazing man in my life.

We're 3 months in and have a lifetime ahead...and I can't wait!